I don't want to be like this

Things have been so chaotic lately. Seems anything that could possibly go wrong has.

I am just so unhappy.

I hate this.

I hate that I am always coming across as a miserable human being to people. I don't want to be that way.

I want to be happy.

I just.... I don't know how to be happy.

I mean, there are times I feel happy. But they don't last.

I want to know how to make it last?